this is it

I was invited to a bible study by a devoted Christian colleague few days after new year. This is like me getting invited to a 3 days in a row rave party. As much as I am honored of being considered, that is just not my cup of tea, and invitiation to a high tea with the Queen will also serve the same feeling. But, it is not fair to reject something that I have never tried before. Anyway, it is just an appropriate favor when a colleague nicely offer you a, well...maybe friendship and way to know God, better.



So, I did went to their bible study. Now, I've decided that it was my first and last.

It is not that I got burnt, but is just that what they have in mind about God are counter to mine. For me, God and faith is something personal and private. I don't want any noise of other opinions drown mine. It won't, I know, so that also leaves me with: "what's the point of joining than if I don't want to take any of those views?"

As I hit the number 29, I realize that in a year, less than 360 days from the time I wrote this, I would be the number 30. And all those time, spinning in a speed of light. I don't wanna waste anymore of my time listen to things I don't want to listen or watching too much porn. Because at the end, it is my inner voice that knows best and anything else, is secondary. I am tightening.

So far, it feels good to listen to yourself, to brave yourself refusing things that you don't [really] like. Get drown into yourself gives serenity that taking you away from dogma.